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As I
looked outside the snow seemed to have picked up more and more. The
flakes were about twice the size of the flurries I saw earlier. The
ground was completely covered from what I could see; it made me cold
just looking at it. I kind of wanted to get up and put on some
extra socks or something, but I realized I couldn’t even feel my
feet, which was weird but kind of intriguing at the same time. I
know I sound like a lunatic when I say that being able to feel my
feet got boring, but it did!
Which
leads me to ask where the hell my mom is, it feels like a lifetime
since she brought me my chicken noodle soup and orange juice. I’m
not really that hungry, I could just use the company. Wow, look at
me, Mr. Super Cool, awaiting his mother to bring his lazy ass some
soup. I sure hope I could talk to her about the weather too, I mean
if there’s anything I hate, it is asinine conversation, and boy was
my mother full of it. Not that I hate my mom or anything, I just
find it difficult to talk to her, she can’t help how she is, I
suppose I should be less of a bastard about things.
Now that
I’m on a roll of regretting things, I’m starting to regret how I’ve
treated Lisa and Miriam. I mean regret is all I’ve been feeling
lately; I just kind of lie still, thinking of how awfully I’ve
treated everyone. It feels like years that I’ve been thinking about
this, sort of letting my personal life fall apart from its already
poor status. It made me want to call Miriam and ADAM to apologize
for how ignorant I’ve been, I looked at the wall clock in front of
me, and the seconds were ticking down past 4 o’clock.
They had to be out of school by now, or at least so I hoped.
It seemed
like the snow was slowing a bit, which made me feel a little bit
better, and I took it as a sign of opportunity. So I took off my
covers very slowly and started to climb out of my bed, I then
realized I couldn’t move my legs and at all. So I tried my best to
get my feet back on the ground, but couldn’t. I was wondering what
the hell was happening to me, I looked outside, only to see complete
darkness, I saw my wall clock, ticking down and down and down. My
hands and legs were a distorted image of their previous state; it
was then that it finally hit me.
My entire
world of reminiscence was shattered by a painful reality, I was a
feeble old man, paralyzed from the waist down, with nothing to do
but sit and recall my life of negativity and ignorance. My mind was
not full of nostalgia anymore, but it was full of regret instead.
It was such an awful feeling that I just had to close my eyes and
hope, hope was all I had left. As I shut my eyes I peered out the
window to see the snow falling from the sky, and just as I thought
it had ended, my winter had only begun.
"It’s
hard to see the picture when you’re inside the frame." -Travis Meeks |